Sunday, July 5, 2015

Ugh! Rant 1

    Upon finishing many series' on Netflix I found myself looping back around to some of the shows I've always been drawn to in my childhood. One of them being Dawson's Creek. While watching I realized how unbelievably alike Joey and I's luck in significant other's seemed to be. Though, I suppose, mine is far less dramatic. But the two types are there without a doubt:

    The two types of guys I have discovered in my lifetime.

    The Pacey:
        "I mean, when you like somebody proximity is a good thing, regardless of how they feel about you. Or don't, as the case may be."
    
    He's the guy who's going to fight for your friendship and trust before he even tries to fight for your heart. He has his flaws. But in that noble, do-good way about him he still manages to make you not care in the least. He knows you can do better than him. But he also knows he can't do any better than you. And he understands how important all the little things are to you.

    The Dawson:
        "How can you simply be friends with someone when every time you look at them all you can think of is how much more you want?"

    Dawson's selfish. He always makes sure that he has what he wants before everyone else. He's also very passionate about the things he holds close to him. And that's also what draws you in and makes you love him. He has this image of perfection, and he's going to try his damnedest to make sure that you fit his ideal role. Which, essentially, is your downfall. I mean, who can be that perfect all the time?

    Quite honestly I'd take the first any day. 
    The second is almost too heartbreaking to witness. 

    When I hear words like that it's saying that our friendship means nothing without some form of reciprocated feelings. It is a feeling of betrayal that is left in the wake. I go into this expecting friendship. I grow accustom to certain standards of being around him. Then when he deems the time fit, he makes his move, expecting me to feel the same as he. In most cases, these feelings have never been reciprocated. In all cases I'm left friendless by someone who doesn't want to wait for me to feel the same. And I suppose I'm mostly to blame for that. I take a while to trust people. But it doesn't mean that I never will feel those same feelings.
    It's true that you don't know what you have until it's gone. 
 
    I think, essentially, that's why Pacey won the girl. He stuck by Joey and made her feel something for him with these grand gestures. He turned her infatuation with Dawson into nothing more than a lapse in judgment. He turned her hatred for him into friendship, and then their friendship to the most deepest form love.

   The only Pacey I've ever encountered turned into Dawson mid relationship.
   Pacey, and other upstanding fictional characters, are probably the reason I'm holding out for the hero.

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